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I'm Chaeni, a slash fanfic writer. I currently post a lot of the Marvel Cinematic Universe (specially Thor/Loki and Bucky/Steve), Queer as Folk, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Star Trek, Mass Effect, Dragon Age, anime, and cat/animal pictures, but a little bit of everything is likely to appear here. I'm liberal and that's likely to show as well. 

“Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead.” 


The Answer to (and the Creator of) All Steve's Problems (1281 words) by heeroluva [AO3]

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Thor (Movies)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Loki/Steve Rogers, Bucky Bear & Steve Rogers
Characters: Loki, Steve Rogers
Additional Tags: Manipulative Loki, Deal with a Devil, Fix-It
Summary: When Steve visits a gay club, he certainly doesn’t expect to run into Loki or for Loki to be the answer to (and the creator of) all Steve’s problems.

Yuletide Letter

Dear Yuletide Author,

Thanks so much for doing this. You’re amazing for undertaking this. :)

Welcome to my brain. I would like to start by saying while the info below may be somewhat extensive, I’m not really terribly picky. I want you to write something that you like writing. I don’t want to force you to do something that you don’t like or are uncomfortable with. Also, please don’t feel like you need to limit yourself to the prompts below. If one of my general likes speaks to you or you are otherwise inspired, feel free to run with it.

The fandoms I’ve selected are as followed:
Hyakujitsu no Bara | Maiden Rose (Klaus von Wolfstadt, Taki Reizen)
Crimson Spell (Halvir “Havi” Hroptr, Valdrigr “Vald” Alsvieth)
Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi (Onodera Ritsu, Takano Masamune, Yokozawa Takafumi) Vassalord (Charles J. Chrishunds, Johnny Rayflo)
Koori no Mamono no Monogatari | The Ice-Cold Demon’s Tale (Blood, Ishuka, Rapunzel, Wild)
Hakkenden: Eight Dogs of the East (Ao, Inukawa Sosuke, Satomi Rio, Inuzuka Shino)


image Hyakujitsu no Bara | Maiden Rose
(Klaus von Wolfstadt, Taki Reizen)
English Scanlation (note this is a WIP)

Why I love the series
I really wasn’t sure if I’d like this when I started reading as I’m usually not into things focusing on war, but I was drawn in. Taki and Klaus’ relationship is so full of politics and intrigue that I can’t help but want to know more. The author gives just enough to keep you wanting. I like that it’s written in a high romance type style, but that Taki is clearly not a damsel in distress. I love Taki and Klaus’ codependency even as unhealthy as it may be. I love the power dynamics here, how Taki has all the power in everything except the bedroom where Klaus takes control.

The first time I read this, I hadn’t realized that Klaus was raping Taki until the shower scene. It was a shock because it was such a counter to their first time in their dorms and again on the train. So much seemed to have changed in the six months that Klaus had been in Taki’s country. Their relationship is so broken it makes my heart break for them. Taki wants what Klaus is offering, but the weight of his heritage/responsibilities won’t let him admit it, leaving him guilty and ashamed. Klaus doesn’t understand Taki’s reticence, having (perhaps naively) thought that Taki would finally be his if he followed him.

First we see Klaus’ horror and guilt when he finally realizes exactly what he’s been doing (“I didn’t come to this country to treat you like this.”), even going so far as to say that he won’t touch Taki again. Then when Klaus embraces Taki after their sword fight, and goes to kiss him but stops because “I promised not to touch you anymore,” it kind of broke me when it Taki stopped him from leaving.

General preferences:
I have a huge thing for Klaus being subservient to Taki, like when he kneels before him and kisses his sword, his hem, his hand, etc. I think both of these men have issues communicating, but I think Taki is worse feeling like he can’t express himself because of his upbringing. I’d love to see something where their typical roles are switched: that is to say the next time that they have sex that Klaud insists on Taki topping. If you’re not up for that, I’d hope to see their sex life take a step in the healthier direction somehow.

(I had the stray thought when reading that maybe Klaud, especially since he was thinking of Taki as a woman, didn’t know that precum/cum wasn’t enough lubricant especially given his size, so I think it would be kind of awkward/funny for someone to have to explain it to him.)

A lot of Klaus’ past is unexplored so if you want to bring that in, it’s be cool. Him playing both sides is cool, but I want his utmost loyalty to be to Taki. I’d be open to him actually being a lycanthrope too. If he’d always been one and was hiding it, the reveal could be spectacular. Or maybe he was bitten or came of age.

Something else that could be interesting is if Taki’s gods were actually real and made an appearance for whatever reason. I’ve also wondered what happened to Taki’s parents, if he had any siblings.

Also feel free to do something based on the Halloween special or the dorm special

Crimson Spell
(Halvir “Havi” Hroptr, Valdrigr “Vald” Alsvieth)
English Scanlation (note this is a WIP)

Why I love the series
I love fantasy. I love magic and demons and all manners of mythological creatures. I LOVE nonhuman characters and possession, and this series has all of that in droves. I love Havi’s relationship with the beast and Vald’s struggle with it and his changing relationship with Havi. I love how Havi’s relationship with Vald starts as a thing of selfishness but develops into more. I love beast!Vald and Vald!beast. Love the tattoos/markings, the fangs, the claws, the whole feral package. I love the struggle Vald has with where he came from and how he was raised and reconciling that with his current state. I love how Vald and Havi fight together (against a common enemy).

General preferences:
Generally crossdressing is something that I don’t have many feelings for either way. I don’t seek it out, but I also don’t avoid it. That said, I really loved Vald in a dress here, so if you want to include some sort of shenanigans that calls for that again (or alternatively Havi in a dress), I’d be all for it. Vald protecting Havi and/or Havi protecting Vald is cool as is Havi using sex to calm down Vald or even Vald being the one to initiate sex. Havi’s rape and use a puppet is never really addressed, and is something I’d like to see.

What if in the end Vald doesn’t want the curse removed because of fear he’ll lose Havi, that Havi loves the beat most than him? Or what if the beast and Vald have merged so much that removal is not possible? Could he return home? Would he want to? Would his people accept him? I love the new white angel wings and can’t help but wonder what they mean.

Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi
(Onodera Ritsu, Takano Masamune, Yokozawa Takafumi)
English Scanlation (note this is a WIP, but it’s pretty developed)
Season 1 | Season 2 | Two OVAs (English Subtitles, both seasons are complete, but the overreaching plot is still unresolved)

Why I love the series
This was the first BL series that I watched. In all actuality, it should have been everything I hated. Generally modern settings and romantic comedies aren’t my thing, but I was hooked from the start. It made me laugh and cry. The latter isn’t too strange, but to have both is rare. I love the sexual tension and the misunderstandings and lack of communication. I love how Masamune can be so outrageous and Ritsu is justifiably outraged. I love how Ritsu struggles with what he wants. I love how Masamune takes every available opportunity to kiss Ritsu. I love Takafumi’s loyalty to Masamune. I love the ridiculous drama.

General preferences
My ships here are Ritsu/Masamune and Ritsu/Masamune/Takafumi. The last might seem a bit weird, but I have thing for threesomes. I also saw the anime before I read the manga and didn’t know about Zen until then, and the threesome idea had already firmly taken hold of me. The obvious request is Ritsu finally admitting that he loves Masamune and them working towards a more stable relationship. I think a meet the parents thing would be interesting here (Fandom cliché seems to be Ritsu’s parents having an issue with his relationship with Masamune, which is fine, but them being shockingly accepting would be cool too.). Another idea would be a future fic with roles reversals where Ritsu finally takes over his family publishing company and Masamune comes to work for him, or maybe even the struggle with being in a relationship while working for rival companies. I also wouldn’t be adverse to Ritsu taking control of sex here, or even topping from the bottom (no longer embarrassed by his desires).

I love the idea of Ritsu/Masamune/Takafumi because I’m a sucker for happy a ending for everyone. Takafumi clearly loves Masamune, and he really gets the short end of the stick when Ritsu comes back into Masamune’s life so unexpectedly. I can see see Ritsu running across a depressed Takafumi and awkwardly trying to talk to apologize, then to try to scare him off he kisses Ritsu. Maybe it would work for the moment, but it would get Ritsu thinking. He’d definitely have to talk to Masamune about it, but then it would develop from there. This would clearly have to be set in the future where Ritsu and Masamune have finally settled into a relationship and there would definitely be a lot of ensuing drama. But really I’m open to anything with these three if you have any ideas.

I’m also totally open to some sort of fantasy AU here if you have any interest in that (vampires, shifters, dragons, magic, demons, and sorcerers). My favorite side pairings is Kisa/Yukina if you’d like to include them in anyway.

(Charles J. Chrishunds, Johnny Rayflo)
English Scanlation (Complete)

Why I love the series
Vampires. Um, yes. I have a major thing for vampires, have ever since I was a kid. This series pulled me in from the beginning. Vampires are awesome, but a cyborg, vampire priest? Even better. It sounds totally cracky, but it not. Or at least not in a bad sense. I love vampirism when linked to the Church. I love Charley’s relationship with Johnny and how it changes as the series goes on. I love how Charley is forced to grow and evaluate what’s most important to him, and I love when Charley finally accepts himself and how truly important Rayflo is to him. I love, love, love the eroticism of the blood drinking. I love how Rayflo allows Charley to drink his blood so he doesn’t have to feed on humans (thus often leaving himself weakened and vulnerable), and how Charley gets jealous of when Rayflo allows others to drink his blood. I love how messed up their relationship is and how they still clearly love each other. I love how Charley calls Rayflo “Master” without it being overtly sexual and how how Rayflo calls Charley “Cherry” and how it is.

General preferences
There’s so much behind the scenes angst often countered with humor that I can’t help but want more. I’d love to see the events leading up to Charley being turned by Rayflo and the events following. Maybe I was reading too much into it, but I think Charley is from the same blood line as Cheryl and that could an interesting line to explore. Post series sex filled with blood drink drinking were Charley’s finally (at least partially) accepted himself and what he is and what he has with Rayflo would be amazing. (Normally violence between partners is something I don’t like, but I wouldn’t say no to it here because they’re vampires and pretty indestructible and I kind of imagine their fights as foreplay.) Alternately a post series story where Charley and Rayflo try to navigate their fragile newness of what they have would be great. For some reason, I think Rayflo would be walking on eggshells.

I have doubts that Rayflo ever shared much of his past with Charley, so that could be another route. Maybe Johnny could share his fear that given enough time, Charley would become twisted like Maria.

My heart broke for Rayflo when he was raped/tortured by Barry. It didn’t even seem like he tried to fight it, like it was a normal thing that he knew there was nothing he could do about. Barry seems to have shaped so much of Rayflo (Barry kept killing all those who Rayflo became close to, so he gave into darkness in an attempt to protect himself and others.) that I wonder how much of what we see it real. I think that could be an interesting route to explore. But really anything focusing on Charley and Rayflo would be great.

Oh, also Minea is <3.

Koori no Mamono no Monogatari | The Ice-Cold Demon’s Tale
(Blood, Ishuka, Rapunzel, Wild)
English Scanlation (note this is a WIP, but summaries of the remaining chapters are available here)

Why I love the series
I love locked away type stories and this series has it in droves (really all these characters in one way or anything). I love how Blood is changed by Ishuka from the very beginning, able to shed a tear for someone he just met, someone who didn’t fear him or death. I love how Wild will do anything for Rapunzel. I love how Blood tries to protect Ishuka from himself.

General preferences
I ship Blood/Ishuka and Wild/Rapunzel here. Both pairings don’t have to be in the fic, but both are welcome. Feel free to write sex here. Blood/Ishuka’s first time would be cool, especially if Blood is animalistic and tries to hold back and fight himself, but Ishuka won’t allow it. Even better if Ishuka initiates it. Something post series about how either couple living would be great. After being confined for so long I can’t imagine that Wild and especially Rapunzel would be content to stay in their tower for too long. Also related to that what Wild did to keep Rapunzel safe broke my heart. I knew that he’d done something that was going to hurt, but when it was revealed and how Rapunzel tried to run even knowing what would happen… just oww. So doing a character study from Wild or Rapunzel’s POV would be welcome.

Exploring what Ishuka is post series could be another route. How would he deal with not aging. Maybe demons are okay with it, but I don’t think humans are emotionally equipped for it. (Alteratively dealing with Rapunzel’s own feelings on the issue could be a thing.) I’d also be totally open to something set way in the future in a modern setting where they’re all still alive and seeing how they live now, how they hide and/or blend in, what they’ve become.

Hakkenden: Eight Dogs of the East
(Ao, Inukawa Sosuke, Satomi Rio, Inuzuka Shino)
English Scanlation (note this is a WIP and less complete than the anime)
Season 1 | Season 2 (English Subtitles, both seasons are complete, but the overreaching plot is still unresolved)

Why I love the series
It’s pretty? j/k. I love the mystery, that so much is unknown and that everyone is trying to find answers. I love how the characters are all drawn together. I love how Shino is the one that’s holding everyone together despite barely being able to hold himself together at times. I love how he can go from acting like a child to acting like an adult in the blink of any eye. I love how Sosuke and Rio try to protect Shino. I love the diversity of the cast and how they seem to get along despite their differences. I love the vampire-ish aspect of Shino’s need for blood after he’s been seriously injured. I love that the series is able to make me laugh and cry. I love Megu.

General preferences
I ship Shino/Sosuke, Shino/Rio, Shino/Sosuke/Ao, and Shino/Rio/Sosuke. Gen with the requested characters (and the rest of the main cast) is also fine. It’s heavily implied that Shino and Rio are brothers. I don’t mind if you go that route or not, even if it leads to incest (and angst). I’d prefer for Shino to be in his adult form if he’s in a relationship here.

I’d like to see a take on where Shino (and Rio) came from and why Shino was separated from Rio. What is Rio keeping from Shino? If Rio isn’t Shino’s brother, why is Shino his responsibility? Why does he willingly give himself to Shino knowing that he could kill him?

I really wasn’t a fan of Ao until he saved Shino in the last ep of season two. There’s a part of him that’s still redeemable. How does Sosuke feel about him, now that he’s regained his strength? Can Sosuke and Ao both survive or must one of them die so that they may live? Would they merge?

As I’ve mentioned my loved for vampires and biting/bloodsucking multiple times in this letter, I’d love to see Shino in that situation be it sexual of not. Can Shino tame Murasame or will he eventually be consumed? What lengths will his friend and/or lover(s) go to save him?

I’m also totally open to the rest of the cast being in this fic. I love them all, but if I’d chosen any for this fandom, this section would have been crazy long.

Things I like: character studies and introspective pieces, relationship driven stories, relationships that don’t follow the normal pattern, relationships that aren’t perfect but work, poly relationships, outside POVs, queer issues, exploration of sexuality, h/c with no easy fix, plot over pwp, trust (how it develops, what harms it, issues related to it, etc.), age differences, slow developing relationships (UST is awesome!), angst, hopeful if not happy endings, snark and witty banter, characters showing their intelligence, non-human characters portrayed as such, characters who are not perfect, working out challenges in intercultural relationships, characters outside their comfort zone, scifi/fantasy AUs

Things I don’t like: alpha/beta/omega universe, domestic discipline, first and second person POVs, using the terms “feminine” or “masculine” to describe a person or alternatively comparing a physical feature to that of a man or woman, fluff and humor on their own, magic penis makes everyone’s problems go away, amnesia fics, genderbending, ageplay (including daddy!kink), breathplay (I will make an exception for being choked with a cock/deepthroating), gunplay, domestic violence, infidelity, mpreg, modern AUs, character bashing, crack, scat, vomit, necrophilia, vore, suicidal ideations

I don’t like the notion that looks, personality, or age dictates whether a person tops or bottoms during sex. I like people who don’t mind either but having a preference is fine as long as they’re open to doing the other.

Kinks I enjoy (if you happen to want to include kinky sex)
clothing kink (half-dressed sex, sex where one person’s naked and the other not, uniforms, gloves, boots, dog tags), scars/scarification, rough sex (biting, marking, bruising), bloodplay/blood drinking, size kink, fisting, sounding, sex toys, exhibitionism/voyeurism, barebacking, stubble (beards) and body hair in general, foreplay (drawn out), begging, nipple play, power imbalance/struggle, BDSM, d/s, rimming, sensation play, frottage, impotence, ages differences, piercings/tattoos, fuck or die, AMTDI, prostitution, pushy bottoms, topping from the bottom, fucked out and messy, cum play, dubcon, watersports, enemas, edging, chastity devices and orgasm denial in general, male lactation not related to mpreg, knotting outside of omegaverse, tentacles, somnophilia, body worship, sexual humiliation as long as all parties get off on it, age differences, incest, awkward/bad sex

Well this is embarrassingly long.

Anyway, best of luck, and most of all, have fun!


Me realizing a problem with the story I'm writing and telling a friend

Me: crap

Me: the bony

Me: bond

Me: and the baby

Me: dskjsja;dlfjsljdlafjaf;laskjdfldasjf;ljfaslkfjdalkjfsafal;f

Friend: LOL

Friend: the bony and the baby. the bony bond and the baby. the bond and the baby.

Me: :D

Friend: *am having too much fun with your typos*

Friend: the bony crap bond and the baby. :)

Friend: way too easily amused

Fic: Broken God (Avengers, Thor, Loki/Thor, Odin, PG-13)

Contains: dark, angst, hurt/comfort, nongraphic mpreg, kidnapping, psuedo-incest
Words: 2212
Summary: The void is not kind to Loki. Odin is even less so. 

Thrice Loki’s body swelled with life as he fell through the darkness of the void, those that had long since been cast out and banished, seeking a way to be reborn. And trice did Odin come and take his children from him, all the while ignoring Loki’s soundless screams. It mattered not that they were not of Loki’s choice. All that mattered was that they were <i>his</i>.

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The Sting of Jealousy

Author: heeroluva
Fandom: Sherlock
Pairing: one-sided Lestrade/Sherlock, John/Sherlock
Rating: PG
Contains: angst, past drug use, introspection, asexual Sherlock
Words: 369
Spoilers: none
Disclaimer: I don’t own them. I just like to play with them.
Summary: Lestrade never had a chance.
Notes: All mistakes are mine. Feel free to let me know if you see any. As always feedback is appreciated.

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Common Ground

Author: heeroluva
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Pairing: John/Ronon
Rating: PG-13
Contains: asexual John, BDSM relationship, brief mention of bondage/impact play 
Words: 731
Summary: Ronon learns a lot from watching John. He learns even more with a kiss.

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Author: heeroluva
Fandom: Sherlock
Pairing: John/Sherlock
Rating: PG-13
Contains: oc character death, violence, fantasy au, h/c, asexuality
Words: 649
Summary: In a dire situation, John has no choice but to reveal a part of himself that he’d been trying to forget.

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Author: heeroluva
Fandom: Sherlock
Pairing: John/Sherlock
Rating: NC-17
Contains: h/c, d/s, oral, asexual Sherlock
Words: 1309
Summary: It’s John who knows when he is drowning, John who always saves him.

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Truth in Touch

Author: heeroluva
Fandom: Sherlock
Pairing: John/Mycroft
Rating: PG
Contains: fluff, massage, asexual John
Words: 142
Summary: Mycroft Holmes has great hands.

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